Self-loathing Narcissist

i don’t fully hate myself
yet i don’t love myself either
i’ve never looked the mirror and truly thought to myself how great of a person i am
or how good looking i am
because i’m not

the cuts on my arm substitute all of the horrible thoughts
the painless thoughts
that ruin me internally and bruise my
already bruised heart

i don’t to be this way forever

d
r
o
w
n
i
n
g
in my warm tears
sadness awaits for my being
and says solemnly “welcome, darling”

i’m tired
i’m a self-loathing narcissist

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